Life.
I was just thinking 'What would you do if this was your last week on earth? Would you rush around wildly ... and get in touch with hundreds of people ... and say many crucial things?'. And if so why don't you 'Live each day as if it were your last' which is obviously really sensible advice? Because I realised that if it were my final few moments here I would lie about reading and pretending that it wasn't actually happening. I have said everything crucial I ever wanted to say already and if I had really wanted to do anything surely I would have made some tiny gesture towards doing it by now? It is quite unnerving to realise that you are totally lazy even when staring into the jaws of de@th. (Lucky I wasn't the only 'One' capable of saving eladynnuS).

When the 'yag eugalp' first appeared the facts were rather vague and blurred so that just about everyone paranoidly thought that they might be carrying it. (I can't write its name backwards as that would be similar to the Fench spelling. Stupid French - why can't they just use the same word as everyone else. Bloody foreigners. Oops - now I will be going to prison. A court here has just ruled that if you call someone a b... f.... it is a horrific raci@l slur, meriting the harshest punishment. It is as if they are TRYING to stir up resentment where it never existed .... in England you tack those two words onto the end of any conversation about 'abroad' as a matter of course. Another of our fine traditions lost for ever ..). Anyway, the main comfort that many people drew from this was that for the last year or so of their lives they would be really thin and finally have a perfect figure. As if, in a teeny way, it would be almost worth it. I even read something similar in an obituary of someone who had died of cancer. It said something like, 'At least, towards the end, she drew some comfort from the fact that she had regained her girlish silhouette'. I am glad that I am now mature enough to say, 'F@ck my silhouette. I would rather be fat and alone but alive'.
- posted by Iris @ 5/27/2004 09:56:00 AM comment